Erratum

Oh, not softball. Shimizu S-Pulse is a football team :p I'm sorry I'm not a fan.

If I'm not this shy to take his picture, it would just take a millisecond for me to click on my phone camera. But I think I am not that eager to take a snapshot. I am seated next to a Shimizu Pulse's (softball) dork :p

Who Won?

Alone

My loneliness is killing me... Yak, yak, yuck! Britney Spears is killing me!

Rain

I'm unpacking again because the clothes I've prepared for my trip tomorrow are mostly casual dressy garments. It's been raining for the past few days. I don't think I want my pumps drowned in a pool of water. No, being chic won't be fitting me in this unpredictable weather. Although I've already checked the forecast, it shows that there'll be a downpour. Sigh, I don't want to be confined in my hotel for the rest of the weekend.

And I felt so stupid, was likely to faint two nights ago when I hit the wrong button and was late to realize about it. I have already been confirmed of a ticket to the F1 Japan GrandPrix this October. My seat-ticket is scheduled on delivery by August. When, when, when I was browsing back my page and argh...!!! I can't even finish writing about it. It stings in my heart. Oh please, I really hope I will be reading a positive outcome when I get another confirmation email on Monday from the agent. Or I should be calling the customer center any time by now.

Missed

Today's hard without you.

I'd look at my phone every time I've had the chance, all the while knowing that there wasn't going to be anything.

I threw myself into the practice and tried my best to forget, but it always came back to you.

I danced vigorously, but it could not replace the emptiness created from that hug you gave.

I was stressed, and I thought of you, and I couldn't - wouldn't - talk to you.

Everything I thought of, everything I did, you were always at the back of my mind.

I couldn't bear to see anyone today except for those people I had to - because they just weren't you.

The song was so beautiful - and everytime I hear it I felt like crying - and you know I hate it when I'm caught in between sobs.

I tried to focus more today.

I still miss you, though.

... And at the end of the day, when the place's finally deserted and I was alone, I wondered if you were thinking of me and missing me like I do you.

Hanno Shokutaku

Gourmet Overdose: Korea Food Trip

Childhood

Just a quickie... Have a schedule to fly to the moon tonight.


This is my uber-vivacious childhood friend. She's a real darling but she could be a raging bitch. So don't try to mess up with her or any of her friends, that includes me, because she'd scorn you to hell. We rarely update on each other, but we'll see each other soonest if our schedule permits. And I really hope her presence won't make me cringe in my own skin. It's been a while, really long while since we last saw each other in Manila. Gah, I was mesmerized by her at that time. Who doesn't? All eyes ogled at her sexiness. I should say, she's so blessed and I'm happy for her. Despite the tragic death of her mom when we just got in the university, then her dad followed just when she's starting to make a life of her own. She's hurdled a lot of intrigues. She might have freed herself from the restraints of being a Muslim, and her values may have loosened, she's stood as pillar to her younger siblings. They are her inspirations to keep on pushing herself to the limits. I quote her, I wake up. I wash my face and go. It's another day. I'm sure. I fight for what I love. And the music keeps going on, my heart begins to beat. Makes my life complete. I'm flying away.


And of course, you will have another him in any minute. They are for certain not worth your tears. I always have you in my prayers, Yang. You know I always do. And I missed Tita too. Your mom was like a mom to me as well. I'm sure if she's still here, though you will complain about her nagging, she'd be too proud of you. You've become what she's always wanted you to be. Being part of FACE and their ace-model, you are a Star... born to be IT! I love you.

Jimi Hendrix

Well she's walking through the clouds
With a circus mind thats running round
Butterflies and zebras
And moonbeams and fairy tales
That's all she ever thinks about
Riding with the wind.

When I'm sad, she comes to me
With a thousand smiles, she gives to me free
It's alright, she says its alright
Take anything you want from me, anything
Anything.

Fly on little wing,
Yeah yeah, yeah, little wing.

(sob, sob, sob... Where in the world did you go, Big Wings? Fly away with your piano?)

Hawaiian Tease

nth of May
sulk in good read
engrossed;
came he
sat across
the absorbed.

Later
eyes blinked
yellow crushed on blue;
'Aloha'
pursed my lip
end of chapter.

耳を澄ませば聞こえる
Mimi wo sumaseba kikoeru
笑い声や涙音
Warai goe ya namida oto
みんな生きてる愛する君と
Minna ikiteru ai suru kimi to
広い海を渡るには
Hiroi umi wo wataru ni wa
一人じゃ迷ってしまう
Hitori ja mayotte shimau
一緒に行こう光差す方へ
Issho ni yukou hikari sasu hou e
ぶつかってはまた抱き合って弱さ分け合ってく
Butsukatte wa mata daki atte yowasa wake atte ku
永遠って言葉あるのかな
Eientte kotoba aru no kana
未来を思うと怖くなるけど
Mirai wo omou to kowaku naru kedo
ずっとずっと続く夢があるから
Zutto zutto tsuzuku yume ga aru kara
手をつなごう
Te wo tsunagou

心が叫んでるのに
Kokoro ga sakenderu noni
君は見て見ぬふりをして
Kimi wa mite minu furi wo shite
前だけ向いて歩いて行くよ
Mae dake muite aruite yuku yo
写真の中笑う君今を描けていた
Shasin no naka warau kimi ima wo egakete ita
伝えるって事は難しいね
Tsutaerutte koto wa muzukashii ne
声を嗄らしても届かなくて
Koe wo karashite mo todoka nakute
ずっとずっと叫び続ける日もあるけど
Zutto zutto sakebi tsuzukeru hi mo aru kedo
想い重なり花開く時
Omoi kasanari hana hiraku toki
強大な力が生まれるから
Kyoudai na chikara ga umareru kara

永遠って言葉あるのかな
Eientte kotoba aru no kana
未来を思うと怖くなるけど
Mirai wo omou to kowaku naru kedo
ずっとずっと続く夢があるから
Zutto zutto tsuzuku yume ga aru kara
きっと
Kitto
この空越えたら会えるから
Kono sora koetara aeru kara
泣いてた自分と君に贈るよ
Naiteta jibun to kimi ni okuru yo
ずっとずっと信じていれば叶うから
Zutto zutto shinjite ireba kanau kara
手をつなごう
Te wo tsunagou

Anime Princess

Sushi + Oreo = Ohisashiburi deshita

Before I hit the hays and hum myself to sleep, I want to pay tribute to Ryle for fixing my page. Your effort means a world to me. You prod me to write. Thanks mucho! By the way, you're right. I scored just the passing mark. Whoot. I was darn too ashame to fail that exam.

So earlier this evening, that smorgasbord of sushi, I've had the whole platter to myself alone (can you believe it?), weighed heavily against my stomach not! I squealed of joy when I read a text message from sensei.

Goodness, this brain is still working. Let's get an Oreo, my treat!

Across the street, over a cup of McFlurry we concluded our night in unbending and straightening out of unrelated ideas. Simply we've had the pleasant get together tonight.

Good night, world.

Sapporo Festival

Drive

Yokohama. My hometown for two years. Now, it is just my usual weekend getaway.

Note: The tallest building on the left, The Landmark Tower which really is the Tallest in Japan and has the fastest egg shaped (designed to avoid wind pressure) elevator at 750m/min, is where I spent my birthday last year. At the "Sky Garden", promenade highest in Japan, wherein the observatory will give you a 360 degree panoramic view of places up to 80kms away, from the Tokyo Metropolitan Government Office to Izu-Oshima. Isn't it spectacular? Absolutely breathtaking. It is situated on the 69th floor and has the size of five tennis courts. And oh, I enjoyed my trip to the sky comfortably in lightning speed. From the 2nd floor lobby, I was whisked up to the deck in only 40secs. Beat that.

The best part of that night was the late hang-out at HardRock Cafe. I had the band playing almost all my lists. You've got to be kind to me. You're the Man, bro! Winksters :p

Inspiration From Tante

AW:
From: Eden Kern (eden.kern@bluewin.ch)
Sent:Thursday, April 24, 2008 3:07:08 AM
To: 'mariale ohya' (boyeng@hotmail.com)

Hi Mariala,

I miss you..
God loves you with an everlasting love…
You are valuable to Him not because of what you do but simply because you are.
His thoughts of you outnumber the sand on the shore... He lives to hear your heartbeat.
He loves to hear your prayers.
If something is important to you, it’s important to Him.
He has never taken His eyes off you— not for a millisecond.
He’s always near… So be kind to yourself.
God thinks you’re worth His kindness. And He’s a good judge of character.
He thinks you’re wonderful.

I'm In!

Though I have to be more focused now and have to discipline myself. Time, don't kill me. I need you more than anything else. Oh, my health.

Be with me...

Kutsu

Get on my shoe-ride.

Neko-chan

My friend, Naomi, has a cat named Blueberry. Isn't she lovely?

With her mamita last December. We went for a karaoke before she left us with tears streaming down her cheeks. Mamita hugged me and wished to see me in Paraguay hopefully soon. Then there was her limousine waiting to take her off to the airport.

Naomi and I both miss you, Mamita. Give us another short visit again. Hugs!

I Miss You

Dearest Wings,

Do you know how much it pain me to miss you a heap? I cry myself to sleep. I feel that you're just taking me for granted, even if I know I don't have a right to feel this way. This being 'something' that I may be special to you. Because I know I'm never going to be that 'someone', will never be that special the way I feel down inside. I only wish I could show you.

I lied to you. I'm very sorry. I can't excuse myself anymore. What comes between us is so vast, and we are not beyond those boundaries. Everything is complicated. And I am freeing myself of it. I don't want to be in a pitfall because I've pushed myself into it. I keep away from seeing you. I seek 'us' none of it is within these time and length.

Please don't ask me anymore. You twist and turn my mind leaving my heart bruised. If this still means nothing to you, I deserve only what I have -my complexities... which prolly I write almost anything. Nonsense, so to speak.

I've had given you more than a space to get to know me. But you were preoccupied. Whenever I reached for you, you pulled away. I couldn't ask for anything more but hurt looking through me.

Your eyes, why does it hurt me? Because you are heaven indeed.