Little Boy

     The little man wants to thank you, friends, for the greet. He still thinks it's still his birthday. The singing and discussion will never end. He'd go over these pictures and he'd leap recalling the fun he had at that time. If you'd not listen to his squeals, he would really squeeze your face and have it focused to his. He wants you to listen to his chatters.
So I thought I'd like to share some of his little adventures...

Engaged

     My best friend is! We spent almost three hours of gushing and at the same time crying on the phone. I couldn't help it. I am so happy for her. She deserves the best; what her heart truly desires in God's grace. And I thank the guy who did not only capture her heart but who also shares her faith to God.

     Dear God, I am much elated to have heard how blessed my friend is. We are so much overjoyed for this certain point of her life. You really work wonders. Oh dear Father, we always continue to pray that they both remain steadfast in Your Love and that it may flourish till end. And dear Lord, I pray also for my own... I surrender my feelings to You; my confusion, my angst, my worthless wanderings, my complains and my all. Bless my heart, renew my mind and rekindle my spirit. You're the only One who knows me truly, inside and out.

your breath is reality.
you're a thick thought on a bounty.
you're sphinx, you' re thorough,
you're lucid, your incognito.

pull me when your done,
laying down a concocted plan.
i disdain your overtures.
i'm tired of wishes.

if misery is your tidings, let thee sleep.
i'm not the crucible, yet your path is my path.
i afford no resistance, in silence i bleed deep.
i submit to you, in meek i take my wrath.

and before iris shut, i be laid in your lesson
let my solace be to ask thee self a question
were you right all along?
were you never wrong?

Rush

I don't have enough time for myself lately. Yes, I am that frazzled with life. After I have finished my shift in the restaurant, I run here at the hotel. Brush up a bit, do some a little make over, then voila! I am typing my thoughts. The small amount of time I could sneak.
Oh, oh, oh, my bad. I have to call my favorite nephew on his 3rd birthday. Last night, he was singing to his own birthday when I chanced him on the phone. My achi had it on me that little boy was actually in front of his cake as if blowing to some candles weren't there. And he kept on singing even if I had to remind him it's still a day early for his big day.
Well, tomorrow will be a big day for us. Because I'm going to treat him to the water park.

Oh Kimi!

Man

In the core, in the shadows, 

In solitude, in throngs.

Your name, your sweet lips...

You etch my thoughts...

In the fires of daylight...

In the afternoon lines,

In the tacit moon night,

You linger in my thoughts.

Through every moment the iris pauses

In every grunt, breathe poses

In every fidgeting the heart beats

You enkindle my thoughts.

Every line your smile makes

Every air your life take

The kindred in your movements

Perfect simple moments...

Your eyes; my heaven

Your touch; my passion

Your kiss; my yearning 

Your love; a lifetime.

Homey Comfy

Wake me up. Not with sweet kisses and tight hugs... Wake me up in violent convulsions... Wake me up from this selfish slumber... I have been complaining too much that I forgot to count my blessings. I have been looking at myself for too long, and that I only see my reflection in you. I have been too busy asking God why I always suffer that I overlooked you... In awe, I am seeing you now... You are my gift. A testament to God's power of creation. I am not the prize, rather I am a compliment to your perfection.

If This Bag Could Talk

I want a new one.

Lost

It's been a while since I last got hold of you. You've been all over the place. So busy... You've been over speeding for a time now. I am wishfully thinking that your ghastly preoccupation is not a deliberate effort to avoid our little talks. How are you? How have you been the past days? Weeks? Months...? It's been that long. I hear you got it going with work. Good pay? Is it intellectually rewarding? I am happy for you. Finally you have landed a job that will consume your ennui and will bleed you as you sweetly desired.

Honestly, how are you? Why haven’t you talked to me like we used to? I see that you are still putting up that "seem so seamless" smile. Your swagger, your gait is still impeccable... You almost lost me in translation. I gather that you have yet to give up on the idea that "things will come to you when you want them to find you..." I don't question it. I rather want to ask, are you not tired of it? Are you not yearning for something that will give you meaning? Are you not tired of complaining? Aren't you?

Have you lost the thirst for the water of life? Are you afraid still to let go the protection of your pride? Are you still keeping on the safe side of the shore?

You told me once that life is a stage. We play our very part and we wear our masks like our own. Yet, at the end of the day we remember still our own selves and let go of the mask. If I look deep inside of you, will I still see the glimmer of who you really are?

I miss our silent moments when we talk about you. I miss the fleeting feeling of you being grand and intent on your dreams. Please do not distrust the notion of invincible hands and concocted coincidences. Please don't stop dreaming...

I know you are trying to deal with life's inconsistencies... Sometimes you just have to admit that there are some things that need not explanation. Rather, it requires full acceptance. It's not a sin to "accept your ignorance in some things". It doesn't make you less intelligent, it makes you more of a man.

Now, go find whoever that someone is... Ask the questions you have been keeping in the deepest chamber of your soul. Tell the things you hold dearly.

It’s been great talking to you. I missed you. See you deep inside.

Irrashaimase

My cool cosplayer students, T* and A*, missed me. And their faces showed up at the restaurant today. They caught me off guard in my freakish smile.

When Doodz Came

Doodz!

The Power Of Two.

Nobody dares our tandem.

Go ahead and dive off the highboard.

We're cool about it.

It's the Mickey Mouse ride!

The Quirante's on Japan-vacation.

With their "Tita" :p

Dry, scorching heat. Burn.

Just first week of June. I hate Japan during summer.

Exhausted. Let's stop and talk awhile.

The matriarch.

Not so shy dad.

Deedee is now a lady.

What are you goofing at?

Who else? Meet Kokim in action.

C'mon, it's just a kiddy ride. Don't be upset.

Scarecrows.

Las chicas. Don't worry, it's just a 360-loop-ride.

Au revoir

I really don't want to write about this anymore. About you. I only want to share two songs humming inside my heart right now. It beats pain. I feel sad, yet you are right. We just have to remain 'friends'. It's too much to take. Though I know we never have had anything that ought me to feel this way.


My heart has chosen to be distant from anyone who might want to tug it. Because it is painstakingly yours. It awaits. Now it weeps.

Wherever you are, I will always think of you.

Keishou

Because my other job demands me to paint my face. Yes, my tenchou did ask me to. Mild colors won't harm people I was told.

I'm not so fond of cosmetics. You'll always see me devoid of facial paints even on formal gatherings. A face powder is not so familiar to my face. Once in a blue moon I wear keishou though.

Not that I don't possess any of those. I just don't do my face. Not only I have very sensitive skin. Aight, this face is so strict when choosing what to put on. So right now, I am driven hell mad searching for new organic set. The ones that have been locked inside my closet were acquired three years past and a year ago.

A face lotion and a lip gloss aren't enough, Sir? Imagine how stern his face was...

Camwhore

Call me whatever you like... Nikon baby, Pentax obsolete, Olympus grunge, Canon wanderer, Fujifilm captive moments. But I will always be a Cybershot freak.

Now, I buy what I want. And I ditch what I don't like anymore. But you can't judge me anyhow. Just because. Period.

Deadbeat

My nephew's. The sweetest thing. He asked me to take a photo of his peace sign to remind me to keep cool every time. At two years old, he's one genuine being. I so love him.

Pinoy band in my usual weekend getaway. If I were not somewhere else, you can find me here. The place is such a treat. Good food to salve your emotional imbalance. Beer and or, wine if you'd want to saturate yourself in alcohol intoxication. Oh, the hot springs... And the comforts you'd get at the Slow House Villa. I could sleep for long...

Another narcissistic pose.

In this scroll states that, Japan will enter World War II.

Hokkaido schoolchildren geniuses huddled to take a grasp of those archaic gold and bronze coins used in ancient Japan.

I don't want to divulge my gluttonous appetite for this pursuit. But yes, I did satisfy myself in my eagerness to try at six different establishments in a row for just about an hour.

Yum, yum, yummy...

I've set my foot and conquered that hell.

Yo Latino! Una celebracion de otro ano, de mas bendiciones, amor y determinacion.

Last weekend I went out with the two Tias. We were having dinner at a Brazilian restaurant. At the far end table were a group of three men drinking and a woman holding the mic... errr, parched her throats from singing. In our middle of meal, she came to us and asked if anybody from our table would join her sing. I shook my head straight off. From the look of their eyes, it would make someone swear right away that you're not guilty. I felt that way. It felt like I was guilty of a sin I have not committed. I sworn and was sweaty. Please you can't both humiliate me, I was begging. Until I gave in, just one song... Crazy For You by Madonna. Because they'd like to hear a Mariah, so Hero I whined??? :p And because I got turned on, I carried the tune of my heart. I tried Bonnie Tyler's Total Eclipse Of The Heart. I thought it was my last piece when one man requested if I could sing in Japanese. When I finished a Seiko Matsuda's, the place's starting to fill to capacity. I heard a crush of guapitos howling more! But this time they wanted to hear some Latin. The woman was fast as lightning typing those codes. First, we had La Solitudine, duet version of Laura Pausini and Lara Fabian. Then this...

Erratum

Oh, not softball. Shimizu S-Pulse is a football team :p I'm sorry I'm not a fan.

If I'm not this shy to take his picture, it would just take a millisecond for me to click on my phone camera. But I think I am not that eager to take a snapshot. I am seated next to a Shimizu Pulse's (softball) dork :p

Who Won?

Alone

My loneliness is killing me... Yak, yak, yuck! Britney Spears is killing me!

Rain

I'm unpacking again because the clothes I've prepared for my trip tomorrow are mostly casual dressy garments. It's been raining for the past few days. I don't think I want my pumps drowned in a pool of water. No, being chic won't be fitting me in this unpredictable weather. Although I've already checked the forecast, it shows that there'll be a downpour. Sigh, I don't want to be confined in my hotel for the rest of the weekend.

And I felt so stupid, was likely to faint two nights ago when I hit the wrong button and was late to realize about it. I have already been confirmed of a ticket to the F1 Japan GrandPrix this October. My seat-ticket is scheduled on delivery by August. When, when, when I was browsing back my page and argh...!!! I can't even finish writing about it. It stings in my heart. Oh please, I really hope I will be reading a positive outcome when I get another confirmation email on Monday from the agent. Or I should be calling the customer center any time by now.

Missed

Today's hard without you.

I'd look at my phone every time I've had the chance, all the while knowing that there wasn't going to be anything.

I threw myself into the practice and tried my best to forget, but it always came back to you.

I danced vigorously, but it could not replace the emptiness created from that hug you gave.

I was stressed, and I thought of you, and I couldn't - wouldn't - talk to you.

Everything I thought of, everything I did, you were always at the back of my mind.

I couldn't bear to see anyone today except for those people I had to - because they just weren't you.

The song was so beautiful - and everytime I hear it I felt like crying - and you know I hate it when I'm caught in between sobs.

I tried to focus more today.

I still miss you, though.

... And at the end of the day, when the place's finally deserted and I was alone, I wondered if you were thinking of me and missing me like I do you.

Hanno Shokutaku

Gourmet Overdose: Korea Food Trip

Childhood

Just a quickie... Have a schedule to fly to the moon tonight.


This is my uber-vivacious childhood friend. She's a real darling but she could be a raging bitch. So don't try to mess up with her or any of her friends, that includes me, because she'd scorn you to hell. We rarely update on each other, but we'll see each other soonest if our schedule permits. And I really hope her presence won't make me cringe in my own skin. It's been a while, really long while since we last saw each other in Manila. Gah, I was mesmerized by her at that time. Who doesn't? All eyes ogled at her sexiness. I should say, she's so blessed and I'm happy for her. Despite the tragic death of her mom when we just got in the university, then her dad followed just when she's starting to make a life of her own. She's hurdled a lot of intrigues. She might have freed herself from the restraints of being a Muslim, and her values may have loosened, she's stood as pillar to her younger siblings. They are her inspirations to keep on pushing herself to the limits. I quote her, I wake up. I wash my face and go. It's another day. I'm sure. I fight for what I love. And the music keeps going on, my heart begins to beat. Makes my life complete. I'm flying away.


And of course, you will have another him in any minute. They are for certain not worth your tears. I always have you in my prayers, Yang. You know I always do. And I missed Tita too. Your mom was like a mom to me as well. I'm sure if she's still here, though you will complain about her nagging, she'd be too proud of you. You've become what she's always wanted you to be. Being part of FACE and their ace-model, you are a Star... born to be IT! I love you.

Jimi Hendrix

Well she's walking through the clouds
With a circus mind thats running round
Butterflies and zebras
And moonbeams and fairy tales
That's all she ever thinks about
Riding with the wind.

When I'm sad, she comes to me
With a thousand smiles, she gives to me free
It's alright, she says its alright
Take anything you want from me, anything
Anything.

Fly on little wing,
Yeah yeah, yeah, little wing.

(sob, sob, sob... Where in the world did you go, Big Wings? Fly away with your piano?)

Hawaiian Tease

nth of May
sulk in good read
engrossed;
came he
sat across
the absorbed.

Later
eyes blinked
yellow crushed on blue;
'Aloha'
pursed my lip
end of chapter.

耳を澄ませば聞こえる
Mimi wo sumaseba kikoeru
笑い声や涙音
Warai goe ya namida oto
みんな生きてる愛する君と
Minna ikiteru ai suru kimi to
広い海を渡るには
Hiroi umi wo wataru ni wa
一人じゃ迷ってしまう
Hitori ja mayotte shimau
一緒に行こう光差す方へ
Issho ni yukou hikari sasu hou e
ぶつかってはまた抱き合って弱さ分け合ってく
Butsukatte wa mata daki atte yowasa wake atte ku
永遠って言葉あるのかな
Eientte kotoba aru no kana
未来を思うと怖くなるけど
Mirai wo omou to kowaku naru kedo
ずっとずっと続く夢があるから
Zutto zutto tsuzuku yume ga aru kara
手をつなごう
Te wo tsunagou

心が叫んでるのに
Kokoro ga sakenderu noni
君は見て見ぬふりをして
Kimi wa mite minu furi wo shite
前だけ向いて歩いて行くよ
Mae dake muite aruite yuku yo
写真の中笑う君今を描けていた
Shasin no naka warau kimi ima wo egakete ita
伝えるって事は難しいね
Tsutaerutte koto wa muzukashii ne
声を嗄らしても届かなくて
Koe wo karashite mo todoka nakute
ずっとずっと叫び続ける日もあるけど
Zutto zutto sakebi tsuzukeru hi mo aru kedo
想い重なり花開く時
Omoi kasanari hana hiraku toki
強大な力が生まれるから
Kyoudai na chikara ga umareru kara

永遠って言葉あるのかな
Eientte kotoba aru no kana
未来を思うと怖くなるけど
Mirai wo omou to kowaku naru kedo
ずっとずっと続く夢があるから
Zutto zutto tsuzuku yume ga aru kara
きっと
Kitto
この空越えたら会えるから
Kono sora koetara aeru kara
泣いてた自分と君に贈るよ
Naiteta jibun to kimi ni okuru yo
ずっとずっと信じていれば叶うから
Zutto zutto shinjite ireba kanau kara
手をつなごう
Te wo tsunagou

Anime Princess

Sushi + Oreo = Ohisashiburi deshita

Before I hit the hays and hum myself to sleep, I want to pay tribute to Ryle for fixing my page. Your effort means a world to me. You prod me to write. Thanks mucho! By the way, you're right. I scored just the passing mark. Whoot. I was darn too ashame to fail that exam.

So earlier this evening, that smorgasbord of sushi, I've had the whole platter to myself alone (can you believe it?), weighed heavily against my stomach not! I squealed of joy when I read a text message from sensei.

Goodness, this brain is still working. Let's get an Oreo, my treat!

Across the street, over a cup of McFlurry we concluded our night in unbending and straightening out of unrelated ideas. Simply we've had the pleasant get together tonight.

Good night, world.

Sapporo Festival

Drive

Yokohama. My hometown for two years. Now, it is just my usual weekend getaway.

Note: The tallest building on the left, The Landmark Tower which really is the Tallest in Japan and has the fastest egg shaped (designed to avoid wind pressure) elevator at 750m/min, is where I spent my birthday last year. At the "Sky Garden", promenade highest in Japan, wherein the observatory will give you a 360 degree panoramic view of places up to 80kms away, from the Tokyo Metropolitan Government Office to Izu-Oshima. Isn't it spectacular? Absolutely breathtaking. It is situated on the 69th floor and has the size of five tennis courts. And oh, I enjoyed my trip to the sky comfortably in lightning speed. From the 2nd floor lobby, I was whisked up to the deck in only 40secs. Beat that.

The best part of that night was the late hang-out at HardRock Cafe. I had the band playing almost all my lists. You've got to be kind to me. You're the Man, bro! Winksters :p

Inspiration From Tante

AW:
From: Eden Kern (eden.kern@bluewin.ch)
Sent:Thursday, April 24, 2008 3:07:08 AM
To: 'mariale ohya' (boyeng@hotmail.com)

Hi Mariala,

I miss you..
God loves you with an everlasting love…
You are valuable to Him not because of what you do but simply because you are.
His thoughts of you outnumber the sand on the shore... He lives to hear your heartbeat.
He loves to hear your prayers.
If something is important to you, it’s important to Him.
He has never taken His eyes off you— not for a millisecond.
He’s always near… So be kind to yourself.
God thinks you’re worth His kindness. And He’s a good judge of character.
He thinks you’re wonderful.