This is how our baby sleeps. She just turned 3 yesterday. "I'm a big girl already!" And I challenged her how big she is when she's not even half as tall as me. She was in a deep thought for a while, and later on, let out a big sigh... "I'm a little girl, but I will become big just like Tia because I eat a lot of lettuce, and it's good for the eyes." Ok, whatever you say so...
I put on her new pair of dia while she's still snoring. Though she kind of jerked and pushed my hand when I put them on, I did it anyway :D I hope she won't ask me to take the pair off tomorrow when she wakes up.

I like!

Yaya

Fooling around with Ayu-chan, while her mom went to gossip with the girls.

Brat

"I don't want to go home to the Philippines. Mommy can go, but I will

stay and wait here in Japan."

Boreas

I count the days
chase the blue skies
watching the leaves
fall into grey;
a foliage of auburn
and flowers wither,
yet brings forth
a myriad of hope
that opens in the snow
fondles the glacial north
when love takes its wing.

Power Puff Girls

While we were waiting for her mom who went to knock one of the doors in this building, so we decided to do random pictures. We were so much having fun in this narrow street. Unpretending of the eyes laid on us, it didn't both stop us. She wouldn't, I should say.

Best Friends

My Ma has caught up the bug lately. She's officially occupied in social networking. Yeah right, you will see her in Friendster, and just aeons ago, she's signing up an account in Facebook :) Anyroad, that's cool. And I got to see my two babies, though, in pictures that Ma has uploaded in her page. Ladies and gentlemen, meet Zaki and Ishi, lovely Akita spitz! They're now both 3 years old.



I sooo miss, miss, miss you two. I bet Ma has given a lot of attention to both of you. Because she can't leave nor move to another place without you mongrels.

Oldies

...she laid back on her bed, thoughts racing in her head, why can't my love be beautiful, she said. And she closed her eyes again, just praying he'd return, ...but only darkness ...fell upon her. ~Wolfgang

Le 01/04/08 01:03, « mariale ohya » a écrit :

I know not for which fate is worse: to have not opened my heart at all or to have loved and lost someone as I did. There is one thing I know though. Loving him was a sweet misery. I loved him as I love life itself, but I was certain that I would never be in his arms for he longs to hold another. I have resigned to the fact that I shall be with him only in my dreams.

He once came into my loneliness and stirred the passion in my heart from its disturbed slumber. He was the beautiful sun, which rose for me on that beautiful morning of a new day of my life. His existence was enough reason for me to be born and entrusted to this void we call our world. I was hurt, maybe I still am. I thought I would never fall in love again. I was scared and lost my trust in love because it brought me nothing but despair. I knew that the glory of that morning would not last. For it must give way to night time, when the beautiful sun, which had heralded the coming of a new day, would become my pitiless tormentor. My affection for him then was my own passion.

He was my cruel tyrant.

It is now my desire to be strong, to never allow my heart to be broken again. Silly how he came barging in and while I refuse to open, I detrimentally failed to shut the door. Well perhaps loving him was like writing poetry: creating a thing of beauty, a heart's song, yet a song I was afraid to sing, for my ballad might be mocked and my love rejected. Nonetheless, life itself is short and passing. No matter what happened, I have learned not to let my song to the grave. I can only be nothing but hopeful.

Maybe my love for him will someday fade with the setting of the sun. But until such time when I will no longer be a slave of my own passion, I shall continue to master the art of letting go. There can be nothing more apt than this.

Le 09/04/08 06:56, « mariale ohya » a écrit :

I cannot find the right words to explain how I kept myself sane over the past years of being just by myself, of being alone on Friday nights. My sanity lies in the realization that neither myself nor my destiny can ever control the truth about having a relationship.

I was born alone, why would I kill myself just to have someone in my bed?

Gloria Steinem said: "A woman without a man is like a fish without a bicycle." Just like a fish, I could still swim the deep waters; without even learning how to walk, even ride bikes. Yes, I have survived years without the comforts of a partner because I am a woman.

Sadness could devour me like a forest fire, but my mind keeps telling me that I can be happy, that I can be normal; even though my hormones are now going haywire. Sometimes, I would just scream at the top of my lungs to release the pressures of being alone. And then, I would just come back to my senses and realize that in my solitude I found the person who would always be there for me... myself.

Looking past the mirror in front of me, I see what is beyond the lines forming under my eyes, with brows slowly shaping into an arch of non-conformity. I see the nakedness of my femininity reaching its value. I do not see curves, rather it is the simplicity of being who I am that suppresses the madness.

Insanity... I have no clue what that means anymore.

28

Happy Birthday to me!

Ballad of Wonder

(anonymous)

Place upon the cravings of the early morning,
From which the heart shall claim the sky,
The soul that never rest from knowing
A shell of dreams that never die.

Thus, move with the shadows doubt
And believing the void without,
And living slightly less regretting,
While knowing powers deep within.

And curse, and play, and give, and feel
The many things so profoundly real.
Again, and again the mind still wonder
The thousand mysteries to love and ponder.

For soon this frail vehicle of flesh and blood
Shall pass with time and turn to mud,
But the mind and the heart will still be glad
For all the wonders that they once had.

April Fool's Day

Another family portrait. This time when Mishka invades Ginza.

Queueing for dessert.

Swiss Miss Family

I missed my ever cousin Nico. And his tie is a delight to my eyes. Pink. My favorite.

ZED

It's been a long day. But I have to rush back home. Our branch manager called up more than thrice today, telling me a lot of excuses. He's been weird lately. I know he was just checking out on me. Imagine whilst I was snorring in a make-believe world yesterday, there were constant ringing from him. So I had to show him the files he was pestering me about. Now he's being crazy, with a side-note of the whereabouts of my "date". He can't just shut up. I had no choice but to slap it to his face that I do have a life. And here I am trying to get the super-express ride, just so I could drop by the office to print the files he's oh-so-fuming about. When I get there, I would like to remind him for the weeks that he was not around, that I would like him to be exiled forever in Kobe or back to Tokyo, because he's driving us mad whenever he's around. Yes, I'm mad and I'm going to lambaste that to his face. Argh, I have to get my gibberish perfectly articulate now. I wish I would morph into Zed's image and totally speak in a foreign tongue.

Wine Overdose

As I look between the beer and the iced tea

Pondering which makes more sense

I tremble in my seat

I need a wine

Oh, where's the loo?

A mic comes handy.

Everyday I look for you
Unexpected futility
Among the wooden havens
The falling leaves
The mysterious corners
The memorable scenes
Unexpected futility
Answers me
Oh, you moved on
Away...
Away from here,
Away from me.

Mwahugs,
Boyeng <3

I don't want to pretend that I'm not hurt with my decision. But yes, I have to stand firm protecting myself from getting 'crunched'... I know I'm too selfish to push you away. If I could make you understand how I truly feel, I wouldn't mind getting 'crunched' to the core. But I don't like how it will kill me when slowly the sparks would disappear. So I'm flying away, which means flying away from the comfort of your Big Wings. May you find your little wings somewhere in time.

~nipped.

Carl Raymon

Woohoo! I woke up from a buzz of delivery-call. A package from Hakodate, Hokkaido.
It's a loot of chocolates and more chocolates from white to dark... Yum! More Japanese goodies, those sweet mochi. Sticky! Of course, Carl Raymon's packs of sausages. A book. An album, set of pictures of places I would like to be at, whenever I feel like thinking and to be secluded from the madding crowd. Oh, there's me! Woot! I have to unpack now before I'd dig memories from the past.

Weekend

For the moment :)

Think Of Me

I've got me some post V-day present. What a surprise from our branch manager! I'm wondering if he's half-Japanese, or just because I am when I'm not???

St. Valentine's

For Kokim and R-yo who both were asking me to send them chocolates to save their reputation (LOL) at their respective offices, of being dateless on this hearts day... You two pick your own choice :p I tried, actually my first, but I couldn't have made it perfectly well. Anyhow, by the time I'll send each to both of you, the look would be more unsightly I guess. I only have a picture to offer :p

Cheers to everyone, and happy birthday to my sister! And to lovely Odette too, hugs on your birthday.

Like any other Valentine's day, I still opt to be alone than crowd myself to the commercialism of a supposed special day.

***On phone conversation with Kokim...

"Won't there be a solution to your problem of not being sociable? Or but, you wouldn't relate yourself to anybody who is way different to your perspective?"

Whatever it may be, I don't have qualm about it.

Squid

One of my yummy faves :p

Singaporean Seafood

It's quite dark. This is only what my iPhone could get. But I don't care that much. My stomach's growling already for that Thai crab dinner (crab in curry sauce).

Our first course is here already. Just check out the place. It's right in front of Shinagawa station.

Begin forwarded message:

From: <YOU>

Date: 2009年1月22日 2:30:18:JST

To: <ME>

Subject: Is there anybody out there...

Your silence is ice

blue void of cold wisper

of sound anticipated

of cracking hope

Silence. I hear words I wish

and all those I fear

Are you hiding in silence?

Are you lost in pain?

Flap your wings, angel

Make the wind roar

of your will to live

Obstinated fighter.

My heart knows no words... I wish you were here to give me that warmth of your embrace, to kiss the tiny pearls falling down my cheeks.

I am still breathing. Although I find the pressures and responsibilities of life nowadays unbearable. I am still swimming in the surface, scaling that wall.

I have dreamt of you. It was so vivid that I could actually feel you. But I woke up from the reality that you were never around. I gasped for air, because I was crying when your image was slowly fading away from me. I walked my way to the fridge and found my half-drunk glass of milk. I didn't want to remember how I feel so alone in that dream. After I went to the loo, I checked my phone and I've got this. From then, it never stopped raining until all I could remember in the morning how heavy my heart was.

I don't think I will ever see you. And I don't think I will ever be with you. 

Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life.

自分を信じるのです。一生、幸せに付き合っていられる自分を自ら作り出すのです。

Golda Meir
ゴルダー・メイヤー

Sometimes I feel my heart fall to vague depths between words. There are such spaces that I can't help but feel. My heart fall between the pregnant pause of all you will not say and all I can not ask.

Mishka

With her Tito-Ninong, her godfather, who she just fondly calls as Kokim. I think she's confused how to address her Tito Kokim, Ninong Kokim, Tito-Ninong... though she could utter straight the above honorifics, she opted for a shorter name-calling in a high-pitched stress.

To Narita

Off to the airport right now...

I need the eye-shut. I only had 4 hours of sleep. I made a cab reservation, so I have to be prim and proper on the time scheduled. Good thing this cab driver is very kind. He gallantly opened and closed the door for me. He even patiently waited for me downstairs, outside his car in a freezing cold, yet calling me through the interphone if I were ready. But nuh, he picked up a croaking voice.

Now he just let me slip to my dreamy world.

Thank you, Katou-san. Wake me up when we're there already.

Benri

It means convenient in Japanese. And for the people that surround me, it also means 'yours truly'.

There were times that I would like to give up, during those times that I so wished I was blind and deaf. I was on this threshold of fumigating my frustrations toward them. I could hardly breathe that I have become mute, as it has always been. I've had to be a pillar despite my prostrations.

I may be an ant, without nothing but only hard labor to carry on her back, unconspicuous to what seems a busy life they own. I don't bite like an ant though, you still don't have the right to step on me. However I was never blind nor deaf to your inconveniences.

Chains

Both of my faves are about to say goodbye... so are the moments?

Frazzled

"All I can do is be me, whoever that is."

私ができることは、自分自身であること。たとえ自分という存在が、どんな人間であろうとも。

Bob Dylan
ボブ・ディラン

お正月

Oshougatsu no maguro sashimi.

Tuna. Yum!

2009

Akemashite Omedetou Gozaimasu!

Mwahugs,
Boyeng <3

The Manila Standard Today

First published 6 June 2008

INTEGRATIONS
Maya Baltazar Herrera

Voyage

There are no children here.

This week, I went to a meeting at the UP School of Economics and came away with renewed belief in the value of the UP experience.

If you speak to anyone from UP – student, professor, alumnus - you will get no Latin slogans or apologies about how the school teaches values inspite of its outward materialism. This is not a student population that thinks about basketball games or memorizes school songs. This is not a school that chooses one statement to drill into the minds of its students.

This is not, of course, to say that UP does not care about values. It is that UP, in its own inimitable way, believes that values cannot be force-fed. The statue of the naked man that guards the entrance to the campus in Diliman best represents UP's approach to all education and the respect for students that is the center of its educational philosophy. All who come to this university, regardless of origin, bring themselves naked, carrying nothing but their thirst; like the proverbial empty teacup, making an offering of self, waiting to be filled.

Adults

For many students from private schools, the first lesson that is learned here is that this is a school for adult education. There are no children here, and that is why no parents are allowed either at freshman orientation or during enlistment.

The spirit of the oblation lies not in a mother or a father offering up his child to the world, it is that of the newly adult, freely offering of his self.

I remember quite vividly that moment that drove home how different the UP education continues to be. It was my daughter's first semester in university and she had invited a group of her high school friends to our house. One of them asked a classmate whether she had gotten her parents permission form approved for that weekend's outreach activity. From the UP population around the table came the mock horrified responses of: "Permission? " and "Outreach?"

I thought about it and realized that all of these students were, in fact, legally adults. I thought it interesting that only the UP students appeared to appreciate this fact.

Even more interesting was the "outreach" comment. I think back to my own university years and the last three years that my daughter has been in UP and am certain there is no lack of civic activity. There are medical missions, house building projects, tree planting, community work and barrio work and so on. I realize now that the reaction was not to the activity as much as it was to the use of the word.

One of the most important differences of the UP campus from all the other campuses my children considered going to is that this campus has no walls. Many parents fear this. They are afraid their precious children will not be protected from the ills of society in a campus that is so open to the rest of the world. But UP is open to the world in more ways than just not having the physical walls.


Community

Being in UP means much more than being a student. This campus is enmeshed in a community. This community is made up not only of the transient population of students who go home at the end of each day. It includes the many, many students who lay their heads on dorm pillows every night, enduring time away from families in the firm belief that this campus will bring them closer to their dreams. This community includes the families of faculty and employees who live on campus. It also includes the many people who do not work for the University, but nevertheless work on campus. This community includes the lady who remembers the brand of cigarette you smoke and automatically hands it to you in the morning. It includes the gentleman who remembers you like pepper on your egg sandwich or the one who knows you will dip your fish balls into two of his sauces and patiently waits for you to eat your three sticks before being paid. It includes the woman who saw all her children through college by selling peanuts every day on campus.

To a UP student, the daily heartbeat of the school is never far away from the realities of the country. The word outreach suggests that civic activity is something outside of the normal, something you do once in a while. It must be immensely difficult to think of community as a thing apart when your campus experience brings you face to face with all of the world's realities every day.


Character

All of this probably explains that unmistakable sense of self that you will find from students who come from this campus. Here is a campus where all have the same opportunities to learn. But, also, here is a campus that will give all the same opportunities to fail. There are no guidance counselors who will chase after you because you have been skipping classes. The attitude this university takes is that you must take the initiative – for learning, for seeking help, for realizing you need help.

That is not to say that no help exists. But it is help that is not forced upon you.


This is a university rich in both introspection and conversation. On this campus, the student is constantly exposed to people – faculty, administrators, community members, other students – who care deeply and passionately about the world. The conversations are almost never purely cerebral. A single graph can provoke comments about government policy and its effects on people.

As a result, UP is home to a student population that looks at the world and cares. It is easy to see pictures of protesting students and dismiss it as radicalism. But there are few campuses in this country where students go beyond a passing curiosity about what is happening in the world beyond their own lives. There are even fewer universities where students not only care but also actually believe they have a responsibility to make a difference – not in some hazy future – today.

And that, I believe, is what truly forges character. Character is not molded by speeches or long classes in ethics or theology. Character grows from within. It begins by being handed the keys to your own self and being told you are in charge; you now have power over yourself and your own actions – and with that power, you take on responsibilities.

Each student in this university goes through his own unique voyage of discovery. On this voyage, as he decides what he cares about, what he will fight for and what he will sacrifice, he crafts his own personal values. That is what education is truly about.

Tonight I Can Write The Saddest Lines

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example,’The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.’

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is shattered and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that’s certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another. She will be another. Like my kisses before.
Her void. Her bright body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that’s certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my should is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.

~Pablo Neruda

4:01

Happy Christmas

Baby Jesus, you're always here in my heart. Amen.

Humility

Fwd: bookF1.com - Christmas Newsletter

Anyone who's thinking of sending me a gift package this Christmas, you might want to consider this option. I will, of course, not complain about it :p


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To: marrihliesse@yahoo.com
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Kanarazu

My dreams are composed of you and no one else. I only see you and don't want to wake up. You steal my night. And you capture my day. Now I'm lost because I only want to be by your side.

Zutto anata no soba ni itai desu.

Grip

I can't put into words what's really bothering me these days. I don't like my job, but if I would have to quit now I will be more lost. I am exhausted. I am depressed. I hope I'm still sane. Am I missing anything? And if I make sense at all, ain't I?

The Alphabets

A. Attached or single? Attached to myself.
B. Best friend? In my lifeline... Lae and Gneiss in Illinois. Don in Singapore. Kokim, Naomi and Tatsurou in Japan, Tobias in Europe. By the way, you can still submit your resume. A decade or two await your full service.
C. Cake or pie? Cake, chocolate cake.
D. Day of choice? Sunday.
E. Essential item/s? Inside my bag... a prayer booklet and the holy rosary, my pink digicam and black iphone, usb, lip balm and milk cream, pen and small notebook, wet tissue and pads, my personal stamp and still the old green passport, electronic dictionary/tool whenever I'm lost in translation, some vitamins and hemoglobin tablets, wallet and a wallet for cards, and oh, itouch and chocolates.
F. Favorite color? Pink.
G. Gummy bears or worms? Both.
H. Hometown? Pagadian City, Philippines. Google map, quick!
I. Favorite indulgence? Books, chocolate and ice cream, milk lotion.
J. January or July? Well, I can't relate. Can I opt for April?
K. Kids? Coooming soon, yet soon. Wait, seven years ago I thought it was the right season to nest. I thought it was the ideal age to cuddle my own mini-me :) But only I waited for a divine intervention that happened thousands of years ago.
L. Life isn’t complete without? ...me being complete.
M. Marriage date? Please wait for the next attraction :p
N. Number of magazine subscriptions: I don't invest on RD and the Times anymore.
O. Oranges or apples? I can't make a choice.
P. Phobias? Getting drown. I can't swim without a life vest, honest! But I can float or bloat :p
Q. Quotes? God is the strength of my heart.
R. Reasons to smile? Life is beautiful in spite of its literary irony and the flattery of human follies.
S. Season of choice? Spring.
T. Tag 5 people. I grab this from donG. So anyone, please yourself.
U. Unknown fact about me? I still want to keep it for myself, even if it's also unknown to me.
V. Vegetable? Tomatoes. Any green or color as long as I could gobble it down.
W. Worst habit? Bags. Books. Chocolates. Couch-potato. Dancing. Derision of wit. Gibberish. Growing up. Henpeck persistently at God knows who. Hit the road and getting lost. Insomnia. Jack Osbourne wannabe. Learning. Lethargic/super-lazy sometimes. Milk lotion. OCD. Persistent, did I say that again? Rapt in thoughts. Sarcasm. Shoes. Singing. Sleeping. This list could go on... I think I'm the worst habit myself.
X. X-ray or ultrasound? My first memory of x-ray was when I was 6 years old. There was an accident, and I suffered a fractured bone in my left leg. With ultrasound, I went back and fro to a gynecologist since I first had my red blot on my skirt. My ovary's troubled. Whatever, but did I go through the deep heat? Poor brain fizzle out.
Y. Your favorite foods? I can't specifically point my favorite. I love to eat though it doesn't show :p Oh, I love seafood.
Z. Zodiac sign? Aries.

Each Time

I was just blog surfing when I stumbled onto this. It reminds me of a dear friend, Rosee, who would always scream whenever this song's aired on the radio. She'd wake up the whole house in the early morning and disturb the croon of a good night sleep. My door was right next to hers, so I would always end up rushing to her side ever willing to come to her aid, only to comfort her high-pitched giggling and progressive addiction to the song, and that I was powerless to stop her euphoric state of the moment. But I love her just like that.

I so miss Browngate, the most coveted place in UP Cebu neighborhood. It was when I was there. Winks. Really it sheltered 12 creative young minds, a dwelling of qualities that delight the sense of sight. I just got lucky to be part of this harem. Anywho, I miss these girls a heap.

Bestfriend's Prayer

I am sensing just the deepest cuts of your heart as of this moment.

I cannot quite put a finger on what it is, but gut-feeling tells me it's more than what you are saying and not saying.

Always, remember my love, that I am always willing to listen to whatever it is that you need to spill just for the sake of spilling, no judgements nor criticisms will ever come from me.

In your tears, however wet your blankets may get, I am there with you in your sorrows.

I am constantly thinking of how you are and how you are faring with your battles, even as I am sure you are already winning as we speak.

Take your time to grieve for whatever, and until you are ready to share, I am more than a welcoming ear. I will give you the warmest hug that has seemed to be in utter oblivion between us these past 3 years.

I say prayers for your safety and your heart that seem to always grapple emotions so heartbreaking.

I pray for rest, that you may find it in your aloneness in Him, who gives us more than rest, the peace that our hungry hearts clamor for.

I pray that He continue to wipe your tears dry, as you shudder from the situations you are facing.

I applaud in the strength that you constantly muster, it is only through Him that you are facing life boldly in the face.

I am here, so ever willing to listen.

I am backing you up in prayer my friend.

God is leading you to do whatever it is that is necessary. Go with His confidence.

I love you.

You're not alone.

i-Motion

Good high noon. I'm on my way back to Tokyo right now. To my busy platform in Higashi-Ginza, to welcome Eldica's bitching and wicked smiles again, to where being glamorous and those pair of stilettos I should put on, to a ritzy-congested world where I feel small and alone. But hey, it's only a matter of five working days. Come Friday I will be that same country mouse... And all I have to do is just to sleep and be a domestic diva.

While on the road... Mt. Fuji. The only decent shot I could manage using my mobile.

Winter Sonata

All I want for Christmas is my MR passport. Anyone from the Philippine embassy should better send it to me soon. I have a family in Korea that is expecting for my gracious presence during the holidays. I shan't turn my back from them. Besides the benefit and the wonderful memories I will be sharing with my foster family, what if "this is gonna be it"? My Korean love affair. Please screw your own lives but mine.

I'm not really into chinky-eyed Adonis. However there was this one guy who caught my fancy. All I ever knew about him was he's EurAsian, and that he's Daniel. Like in every rush hour, the short-lived vacation, so went my fleeting moments with him.

Now ladies and gentlemen, grand jury members, board of trustees, ministers or knights of the round table, your highness and majesty... I come humbly before you all, that, I may be granted a flicker of hope... Deliver my passport now, or I'll put your office to a burning flare.

Kitchen Mama

My ingredients for tonight, but have no idea of what's going to happen next. Hmmm...

Tofu Dish

House Cleaning

I can't fall asleep yet. So help me, God. It's 1:28 in the wee hours already, and I'm still doing the vacuum... the laundry bin's spinning... water is filling up my tub right now. Oh sleep, when do you come and visit me? I am so worn out with insomnia lately.

For My Sake

Roppongi blues; past 2am and your shutters wouldn't just let you... Forget the exam, let's cram for something else instead...

Like Tia like nephew. Guess the difference? He's not only good at camwhoring, but toying with the camera is an easy piece. He took the last pic.

Getting censored with my pair of antennae.

Life's literature told in a series of coloured panels.

Busy As Bee-bot

Because I am moving out soon! If you'd take a look what's going on inside my tiny palace is a litter here and a clutter there. Well, I don't care. I'm frantic!

Ice-Cream Headache

"A thinker but not necessarily a doer".

♥ I don’t want to sound over-confident. I digress. It’s not just true. A thinker. Sure I do think most of the time. That I’m always too caught up with this myriad of thoughts I slack and could not figure out which is which. Heck, I do procrastinate. But I do get things done in my most efficient way. I could juggle different tasks at same given moment.

♥ I am though guilty of shutting the blinds and not letting any ray of sunshine through when madness engulfs me. A manic depressive recoils and wallow in her cocoon; who succumbs to the intense meeting of ballpoint and sheet. A piece full of wobbly symbols which bewail anxiety, pain and tears of this broken spirit. At my best, even at the most trying time of pushing my patience to the edge, I remain calm in expressing myself. I only speak when it needs be…

♥ Here is a world full of lies, deceptions and pretensions. When can they be true to themselves? No matter how they project a skin anew and hide inside their frocks, they will still turn ugly. Their own deceit will betray them as it would surface how they deplore the language which they could not even muster. And this masquerade they gloze themselves in will veneer off the appearance they so perfectly improve each day; the true of colors of a copycat.

♥ Sometimes I wonder, does moving on mean teaching yourself to stop loving the person and look for someone else? Does letting go mean killing the hope of reconciliation even deep inside that is still what you pray for… And that small hope lives there in the smallest corner of your heart? But I guess, there is no definite manifestations of moving on and letting go… These are only the right words to say of what a person should do when things get all shitty…

♥ I will cry my heart out and empty myself of pains. I am just about… and it feels exhausting, mentally excruciating. As far as my truth gene could bare and I’ll sing my hallelujahs, they cower when a tsunami of bold essentials laid bare at them. They’re not as sincere to the first words come out from their lips. I could never truly rhapsodize the goodness of their hearts.

♥ As day wore on a heavy despair gathered; crushed, obliterated. Because somewhere behind, in the twilight, a bitter weeping and a hopelessness. To where this unfaltering spirit must go, passion seemed to ebb away. Unless something happens in this perfect lucidity.

So I Whisper

I quote "love moves in mysterious ways"... It's either we take or leave it. Not even we can call it a risk, but it's a feeling that we have to nurture. A feeling that becomes a responsibility for us to be involved in. Love as synergy will make us you and me... Love creates 'us'.

If only you believe...

Buta No Kakuni

Salmon No Satto Yaki

Toilet-Love-Affair

My happy thoughts and lethargic days evolve around this guy.

Paraglide

My life is worth 7,000 yen only. But I'm excited. It will be on the 23rd of this month. And I will be flying against all odds.

Hmmm, my emotional brain is thinking of how to overcome this extreme experience I will be facing soon... Amygdala sure won't be my nice-y mate when I'm up the sky to support me of this plight, oh I mean, during this human flight with only inflated wings as my threshold to death. Eyes rolling. If this death defying act would turn me into a bird, oh dear heavens, eversince I was a small child I wish to become an angel... Well, not all angels have halos. Ain't it right, aight?

"I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away. I don't know where my soul is. I don't know where my home is(And baby all I need for you to know is)... I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away. I don't know where my soul is. I don't know where my home is." ~Nelly Furtado

Dinner's Salad

Whatever

It spells pain...

Halloween Special

The Cast

Thanks Totomai for this! You were Janjan-kun's fave at karaoke. Congratulations, you're a certified karaoke-ist, haha!